. >> a woman in the final stages of lymphoma. her story is one of three told in a cnn special "to heaven and back." randi kaye spoke to these true survivors. >> reporter: how was he reacting to the fact that you were in this coma and he thought he was losing you? >> he was very distraught. he was there by my bedside. he was holding my hand and i could feel he was willing me to come back. >> reporter: and you had a choice to make. >> i had a choice as to whether to come back or not. at first, i absolutely did not want to come back, because why would i want to come back into this sick and dying body? but then it was as though in the next moment i understood why i had the cancer. all the years of beating myself up, feeling flawed had turned my own energy against me and manifest it as cancer. >> reporter: fear, in a way, poisoned your body? >> yes, it did. and i understood that now that i knew this, my body would heal. >> reporter: you had this huge revelation and sony and your father both affirmed what needed to be done. >> reporter